My day has gone okay. I kind of had a lot to do today. I'm trying to get something similar to my old job so I can stay home with Ashton. So hey... I wanted to talk to you about us, busy days, etc... First of all, I would like to say thank you for keeping me updated last week on how busy you were. I truly appreciated it. It was helpful when it came to knowing when to say hi. Because of how the weekend went, I feel like I should talk to you a little bit about me, how I do and take things here. On Saturday I was a bit frustrated. Let me explain why... I woke up on Saturday morning and saw that you were going to be busy. I went about my morning. Checked here and there for you to let me know when you were back so I could say hi. I saw that you came back so I wrote a post to say hello.
Then I saw you were pretty busy again, so I went back to my day. Gave you space to get things done. I came back later and noticed that you had been back shortly after. That's when I got a little confused. The part that got me a bit frustrated was the part where I didn't understand if I should post something or not. You seemed extremely busy. That's when perhaps I let my frustration get to me and I didn't handle things right. The next morning I needed to get the kids ready to leave, but then they didn't leave at all. I ended posting until 2:27 pm. Then I saw that you were really busy. I took down the post because I didn't think it was the right time to talk about the day before. I figured I would just talk to you later. So here is a little bit about how I do things... When you are busy, I don't want to be in the way. If I see you here, I say a brief hello but that's because I think you want to hear from me. That's why now my weekday posts during the day are also a bit more simplified. The affection on my posts... Sometimes it may come across a bit cheesy. I'm not a cheesy person at all, Jason. I mean cheesy is good, but not every day. My kids don't even get cheesy affection. They receive love, and mostly in a form of action. I describe my affection a little more in detail here, because I don't ever want you to feel that I'm just typing a mindless post. I hope that you don't ever feel like that's how I'm going to be in real life. An overwhelming person that always needs to give or express too much love. I always hope that you know that when I talk to you, it's always with respect and love. And the last thing I would like to mention... I am not a person that gets frustrated and feels the need to reciprocate with angry silence. If I stay away is because I'm seriously dealing with my emotions and need a little time to get things back in perspective and to know how to explain myself a little better when needed. When it feels like I don't quite know how to put it all in words, you will see a little something that reflects an... I wish I were with you. Because most days, when feeling overwhelmed... that's the one thing I wish for. And then the next day (like today) you may see/hear an apology. I like to apologize, say I am sorry, when I feel that I didn't handle something the right way, or that I was unfair. I am not perfect, but I do try to be my best for the people I love and care about. Sorry this post is so long and super late. But I felt like it was important to discuss these things. Have a very good evening, my love! Un beso. ♥